Fantasy (almost) Makes Reality Bearable:

As I'm sure everyone knows, it's EO day again. Hasn't started yet, but then again, the beer in the fridge hasn't gotten cold enough yet. It's starting to be ok, though, because I have my fantasy world that I can escape into and it blocks out reality (until, of course, HE speaks....). Love isn't supposed to be like this. I almost knew that years ago. Anybody remember that one Al Pacino movie... not sure of the name of it... but "just when you think you're out, they pull you back in..."
Til next time then....

Butterfly Effect

Been a couple of days since I've been on here... same old shit, different day. Yesterday was "every other" day... Those of you (where the hell are you anyways??) who read this, know what that is. Did anybody ever see that movie "The Butterfly Effect"? Where he went back in time and changed different aspects to try to make everything turn out perfect? I recently was given the opportunity to see one area of my life, where if I would've made a different decision, maybe things would be better. But, then again, fantasy is obviously always better than reality. Til next time then.....

Just Another Day

Feeling colorful today, so I thought I'd blog in purple. Haven't been on here in a few days. Doesn't really matter, nobody is following this anyways. Today is what I call the "every other" day. There'll be drinking tonight. It's every other day, hence the name. I had an "if you can't beat them, join them" attitude this week. I have drank right along with him 2 nights and we ended up staying up until 7 in the morning both times. Tonight, I'll be drinking Bailey's and coffee. Will I turn into an alcoholic, also? We'll see. Seems I'm at the "whatever it takes to keep him" stage. Not good. God will get me for this, I just know it!

On another note, an old boyfriend from the Navy got in touch with me yesterday. Unbeknownst to me, I guess he had quite the crush back then. I thought it was just a fling. Who knew? Certainly, not me. He is living in upstate New York and is a cop now. It's always good to hear from old friends and know that life is treating them well. "Thank you, Jesus" I always say.

Well, time to finish up the housework, do my online classes and get ready for every other night.

Til next time then.....

I Know I'm Not the Only One Out There

When you're in love with someone that is an alcoholic, you feel like you're the only one in the world dealing with this same problem. In my own case, I can't talk to friends and family because they would all just say "I told you so. Now get out and stay out." Realizing that, because of the love I feel, that is not an option for me is the reason I have started this blog. To find others in the same situation and perhaps be able to provide moral support as well as gain some moral support for myself. Hoping to hear from some of you. 'Til next time then....